There's been so much going on lately that I am outrageously stressed. I'm not eating or sleeping well, I'm exhausted, my moods have been every which way, and a simple action can immediately change my outlook on the rest of the day.
I miss my boyfriend. It's a relatively new relationship, but I am completely comfortable with him. I can tell him anything that's on my mind. We have fun together, always laughing and smiling. I wish he lived closer, or that I was closer to him.The long distance relationship is definitely hard. He lives a little under 2 hours away, and the hours we both work are hard for us to spend time together. Of course, that makes me wish for a different line of work, or a change in my schedule. Which has also changed a lot lately.
Work had been unbelievably slow, sales wise. Unfortunately, that makes more work for me since I have to send everyone else home and it leaves the work for me. In addition to this, we just lost a manager, so my workload is double. Granted, I wanted the hours, but not this way. I'm pulling enough hours now, but they're not the kind of hours I want to be working. Stevie starts school in the fall and I'd like a job that is a day shift so I can be home with him in the evenings and on weekends.
Stevie. That's another stress. I love my child, but he's been getting so unruly lately. Between not listening, trying to find daycare on a daily basis, getting into things he shouldn't, I'm about to go crazy. I don't know how to go on with this. He gets time outs, spankings, toys taken away; I just don't know what else is going to help with his behavior.
Those of you that know me, I'm a people person. I like to have people around me majority of the time. I like to talk out my feelings, but only with those I know well enough to open up to. Lately, all those people have been busy. I can't text them, or see them because of schedule conflicts, and I feel like I have a lot of unwanted stress from that alone. I'm used to my girls being here to vent to, and they don't have the time right now. I don't blame them. I'd be off living life with my man if he was here, and work is always a time consumer.
I want HAPPINESS, FAMILY, and a regular schedule. I want to come home and cook dinner for the family; hubby, kids, dogs, etc. How do I get my life the way I want it? I feel like it's impossible to get anywhere at the job I'm at, but nothing else is coming my way. I want a family life, not a stress ball. How do I get there?
